I never knew what this dark feeling was. I was 15, and it was difficult to describe to anyone who had not felt it before. This feeling of feeling no emotions, I was numb. I didn’t know that feeling this way for such a long period of time was not okay.
My name’s Andrea Auerbach Vieira. I’m a social media influencer, I was born in Brazil.
Everybody knows Brazil for its stunning beaches and perfect bodies wearing tiny bikinis. Since my childhood I struggled with eating disorders,always overweight, by 12 I started taking amphetamines, by 15 I had my first anorexia crisis, but I was happy because I lost weight...
I recently started was diagnosed with anxiety and clinical depression. Yes, I was always somewhat of an anxious person. Always overthinking what if this, and what if that. My journey with depression started years ago but I was never fully aware of the feelings because I’d go out to shop or meet friends or drink whenever I started feeling any negative emotions or thoughts.
I have battled with mental illness since I was around 11 but I didn’t know that at the time. After my grandfather passed away when I was 9, my life felt like it flipped upside down. Everything seemed so much more dark and gloomy than it used to be for me. It was like I changed completely and I had no idea why.